I feel like I’m always upbeat on this blog because for the most part, I am a very upbeat person. And I love sharing my fun, upbeat (and a lot of times awkward) stories here, but sadly, life isn’t always happy.
I love my job as a child life specialist. Love it. But every once in awhile I come across a patient that breaks my heart, one that sticks with me even after I go home for the day. I know that having a deep love for children is one characteristic that helps make a good child life specialist, but that deep love can also be tough when you meet a child that pulls at your heart strings, one that is not easy to love on while they’re at the hospital and then happily wave goodbye to as they leave to go home.
There’s a little noodle at the hospital right now that has been on my mind non-stop. Obviously I cannot go into details about her case, but I can say that someone has harmed this baby in one of the worst ways possible and now her life will never be the same. Her room calls to me every time I walk down the hall. Lately, whenever I’ve had the chance I have slipped into that room to hold her and love on her. I hold that little girl in my arms and I tell her that she is loved, that she is beautiful and smart and is such a good girl. Because to be honest I’m not sure if she’s ever been told that. And I pray quietly. A lot. Because I have to know, that through this pain, God has a plan for this amazing little girl’s life.
As much as I know that I can’t dwell on this baby forever, I also hope that I never lose my compassion and love for every patient I come across. But I know that one day soon she will leave this hospital and, although I may think of her occasionally, life will move on.
But for now I will continue to take every opportunity I have to show her love while I can. And I ask anyone who reads this to say a prayer for this little girl. As well as her family. Pray that she and her family are shown love and healing as they get through this tough time. Because I know that through all this pain, they are still loved. All of them.
And that’s it for now. Back to happiness tomorrow, I promise!