The time when mommy cried…

Today Leah had her 2 month doctors appointment and I think it traumatized me more than it did her. I had been trying to mentally prepare myself for her shots all week, but I went in knowing there was a very good chance I would end up crying. Thank God my parents are in town and my mom came with me, because I definitely needed the moral support. Up until the shot portion of the visit, Leah was a model patient, showing off her smiles and coos to her doctor. She weighed in at 11 lbs 14 ozs and is now a lengthy 24 1/4 inches. My baby is TALL! She is in the 95th percentile for height and in the 75th percentile for weight. I have a feeling she will be long and lean, just like her mommy and daddy!
Then it was time for the shots. As a child life specialist, I have been a part of numerous shots, blood draws, IVs, etc on babies and I have always been able to be there for support without getting emotional. To be honest, there have been times where I have been at the head of the bed, comforting a baby, while the mom stood in the corner and I passed judgment, thinking “The mom should be here comforting her baby, not me!!” Let me tell you, I’ll never think that again. Motherhood changes your perception on everything. Although I have witnessed countless shots on babies, it has never been MY baby before and that makes all the difference in the world. First shot in, when Leah’s face turned purple and she screamed like I had never heard before, with tears streaming from her eyes, I lost it. All I could do was bend over her face, kissing her tears away while I tried my hardest to keep my own tears at bay. Luckily babies forget quickly and by the time we were heading out the door Leah was fine.
Now we are dealing with a slightly crankier than usual baby who has been napping today like a champ. Let’s hope she sleeps well tonight. For now she is enjoying her last night with grandma and grandpa! She’s got to get all those grandma snuggles in while she can!


5 thoughts on “The time when mommy cried…

  1. Valerie says:

    Oh, virtual *hugs* to you, hon!! I SOOOO know what you mean! It just breaks your heart. And ,unfortunately, it doesn’t get any better (for you) as they get older. 😦 I have dreaded the few appointments where shots have been given. But, like you say, they recover fast and we’re protecting them from some REALLY horrible diseases!! 😉

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